Denied by Destiny: Trapped in the Shadows of the Mate Bond

-Josie -

I'm quiet as I move out of my bedroom not wanting to alert the household that I was heading out.

It was still early and being a Sunday, no training was scheduled.

There was no reason for anyone to be up early on a pack-wide rest day. Unless you were on border patrol.

As long as I tip toe down the stairs, avoiding the creaking steps...I should make it out without being

heard.

But as I make it half way down the stairs, a sigh escapes me...both Mum and Dad are at the bottom waiting for me. "Can we come?"

"How did you find out?" I stop a few steps from them, unable to hide the bite in my tone. They didn't deserve it, but I was irritated that they had found out.

"I told you, the hospital has policies to follow." Which is code for, Sophia told Dad.

I sigh internally, there was no point hiding any of my prenatal appointments with them, Sophia was going to tell them each time now anyway.

"It's just a check up, just to get me on the system as it were. Not a lot will happen." I try to brush it off.

"We don't care, we want to be there to support you."

"Really?"

"Yes, of course."

Warmth spreads throughout my chest, yes...yes I would like that. I want them to be with me. This is their first grandchild after all.

"Okay." I smile out, my emotions once again flipping over. I was like a yoyo at the moment, still reeling from Jaxon's intrusion, from the hole in my wall. But I needed to push my anger with him aside, this was a special moment, one my parents want to be included on. "You mean that?" Mum takes a step towards me, her hand placing out to help me down the stairs. I was pregnant not incapable of walking the last few steps but her gesture is sweet and I make no comment.

"Yes, I would like you both to be there with me."

It feels peculiar, to be sitting in the doctor's office with my parents. I wasn't a child anymore, I was an adult growing my own child. Yet, I needed them...I didn't want to be alone. No matter what I might say, no matter how strong I try to play...I was scared.

I was worried about the unknown path I had now entered on...scared about my future as a single mother.

I don't know why, many women rock it and this isn't the Middle Ages. I can do this I know I can, so what is holding me back. Mum and Dad sit in silence, behaving as they just watch Sophia take the typical readings of blood pressure and temperature.

She hands me a bottle of pregnancy vitamins that I need to take daily as well as ask questions about my wolf's energy levels.

There's a slight growl from Dad, which causes a bead of sweat to form upon her brow...she was more nervous than me as she draws blood out of

my arm.

She doesn't need to use silver, which I think she was more grateful for than me, Dad was already almost lunging out of his chair.

Sophia works quietly, not giving anything away as she continues to give me a full health check and write down the results on a document.

She calls my parents over when I am finally laying back on the bed, my relatively flat stomach covered in some kind of jelly substance prior to the ulstrasound.

Nerves creep back in...self doubt, I don't think I am actually ready for this.noveldrama

He should be here, he should be a part of this.

Guilt of keeping him out of this washes over me, it's harshness not lost on me.

I have a sneaky suspicion that it is my wolf sending me these emotions, her constant pining for me to tell him, when I was trying to protect her, protect me from his rejection. He has another.

Deep down I know I will regret this that I I

differwish I had handled things

differently but my wolf is so weak as it is growing this baby, I can't give her a broken heart as well.

At least I can carry that burden for her.

She had hope, whereas I had to be realistic now.

So what if we were a fluid family, so what if I was in love with him...it didn't mean he was in love with me.